7A 1B not bad...

It seems that my results weren't thatbad that I expected....

PMR result just came out today... I was so nervous... When I got my results... It was a relieve... It wasn't that bad at all... Sometimes, I felt my results were bad, although I dunno where that feelings come from... But I trust myself... I trust my hard-works will pay...

I spent almost all the time I'd left to study on my weaker subjects... And it just came out distinctive~~

Haha... Looks like I'm going to Form 4 pretty soon...

18/12 7.21pm Gasping air from the business in the centre...

Actually now I am doing some work on the computer... Some orders that I have to sent to the HQ to prepare the worksheets used for next week... Haiz, it seems I'm too busy to blog nowadays... I'll try to but not frequently. My timetable are fully used:

Monday - Tuition at 3.30pm to 5.30pm
Tuesday - At Centre from 4.30pm to 9.30pm
Wednesday - 1.30-2.15 Piano Class; 3.30-5.30 tuition; 7.00-9.30 at centre
Thursday - *Free* 8.05-10.50 Basketball with friends :-)
Friday - 3.30-5.30 tuition; 5.30-9.30 At centre
Saturday - 9.30-1.30pm at centre
Sunday - *Free* If no other activities....

Actually ages like this it isnt nice to have a timetable like this, but I do.... So I'll try to suit myself in it... But I requires a lot of time and sacrifices~~

I am thinking whether i got a future or not...

I don't know why... My luck this years seems to be "0"... My leg is recovering but I cannot attend whatever activity... I hate the feeling to stay at home... I don't really wanna stay at home... I hate it...

I really want freedom... I don't think I can get it... 3years from now, I will still be in this situation... My estimation are never wrong... Haiz, this is the second year I can't follow to PD... T.T...

I think I will not have any chance to go to PD with my friends again... The only chance to meet my friends are 11/22 BBQ party... I think I will advise all: “酒逢知己千杯少, 不醉不归！！”

If I keep on missing all this activities... I think I am a robot... All programed... In my program, I only know work, money, sleep, eat... I hate this activities but it seems I have no other choices... I rather go out... Out of my house.. I don't care doing what... But I don't think I have a chance...

I am sad for this... Very very sad... I lost... I admit defeat to destiny, luck and freedon... I have a feeling that I'll cry... But I won't shed tears for what I hate... I only shed tears for what I like...

I don't know whether I can sleep or not... Its been a week since I can't sleep well...

A very boring day indeed...

I wonder who is the hell Christina Chan... She is making me freaked up... I mean really freaked up... I don't understand her meanings and i don't want to answer her question either... I just hope she never exist... I just... I just want to keep that to myself... Really I want to keep the answer to myself ONLY...

Everyone is talking about this... This is more than a rumour... lol, I really dunno how to settle this. I really hope this rumoour will stop... I don't want this to continue and continue... Cause this is interuputing my life... I am just an ordinary person, why this type of things keep on happening on me~~

Lol... Party on 11/22 was confirmed... Hope everyone could come and enjoy... the map to my house... please click on the link for more information... Go to google map and search for Taman Kajang Impian... For more details call 016-2318618

My leg!!

The picture of my wound... The doctor sew it up...

Lol... Quite painful and awful to look up at it...

But thats a souvenir...

What a relieve!

Today is a brand new day of my life... I think I am going to appreciate the chance that God gave me to live on... I'll live on with courage and dare...

I just hope I can meet my friends as soon as possible... Some of them I opt to meet them but there not around... Haiz, its something I can't accomplish on time...

I just hope I got... I got one more chance...

30/10/2009 FRI

Today.. Not very happy... 9.30 morning I reached the hospital for a regular check-up... To check the wound... The doctor said it was counted good and will recover soon... He loosen my bandage to make my walkings more convinient...

I had my breakfast and its time for medicine... Now I'm in my mum's office having my break... Sometimes I think I am very very useless now... I need people to help me... I mean always... I don't know how to describe my feels... I can't walk the stairs as how I usually could... It is just not me... I can walk stairs like flying but.. I just feel abnormal... I tried to execute my work in the classroom but it seems that my leg was a burden for me.

Whenever I strectch my thigh muscles... I'll feel the pain... And this isn't a joke... Quite painful... So I try to relax my muscles... But I'll walk like a person who is lame person... Lol... What the hell happened to me... What should I do...